



12:03 AM
rah! why is msn not working... its driving me nuts..
i think i shld start packing too... grrr.. i dun wanna go back... -cries- i wan to stay here.. i wan to study here... sim i also happy now... ahhhh... being away from home is like the last thing i wan to do... -sobs- damn sad la....
dunno wads wrong with me again.. just felt like blogging.. cuz i also dunno who to talk to... and i dunno how to speak my heart out... its just too difficult... i think i am the only idiot in this universe who cares so much for someone who isnt even that impt though i feel that he is very special to me... my dad can happily call at this hour and ask me why am i not out... hello... where are u? how am i suppose to go out when u guys just travel all day... =_( do u think i bear to leave him alone? though i really wish to get out of the house sometimes... i think my parents dun even care as much as i do... i really think im crazy....
what am i doing this for? wad will i get in the end? sigh... care so much... cannot even watch tv and do wad i wanna do in my own room... i'll listen to everything you want... im damn really sad... im leaving in less than a week and yet im still doing so much for you... i dun even think he will ever realize that...
and i believe there is a limit to rubbing into other ppl's life... there is a point where u should stop and know that u have gone beyond what u shld hav... hello??!!! its my freaking life... i deserve to hang out with whoever i want to.. and msg or talk to anyone i want to... they are my frenz... comment all you want if u are not happy... cuz i will accept that... but dun you think its a little too much taking another person's phone to look at their msges? especially when I specifically said... DO NOT TOUCH MY PHONE AND DO NOT READ MY MSGES... when will people actually understand that i need some privacy in my life... i think everyone is old enough to understand that la.. i dun hav to explain why... cuz if i am actually able to respect ur privacy and not read ur msges... i think i deserve some sort of respect too...
loving and caring for you is volunteery... sacrificing my nights sometimes... to watch over you... is also done willingly by me... but at least... allow me to do things i wanna do... cuz i know wad i am doing... i know i shldnt be crying over this... but its just starting to hurt me.. i dunno why... i cant help it... i wan a happy final week at home... and not one where i cannot do anything i wan to do.... not even being able to like the climate... or watch the tv... i think its a little too much... its hurtful... and it really is... i'm sorry... =_(
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